This year I’m not visiting family for Christmas. I say visiting family and not going home very deliberately because I have had to build my own home far away from relatives, for a lot of reasons. Today I miss my nieces and nephews. I miss my family’s special cookies and a homemade meal and conspiring with my oldest niece — who is now almost four — to eat as much candy as possible before any of the adults in the room notice what we’ve snuck off to do.
I am a Grinch. Christmas gives me more anxiety than literally anything. Maybe moving or being in the hospital is on par with Christmas. But mostly Christmas makes me want to crawl in an ice cave and wait for death.
But as Grinchy as I am about Christmas, I love Dave Grohl that much and more. He is my north star in a one hundred percent unhealthy way and I hope he would appreciate this and not find as creepy as it probably is. And last year when Foo Fighters — my favorite band since like 1997 — played my favorite ever song (also since like 1997) on SNL and then smoothly transitioned into a Christmas medley? Well, my Grinchy heart grew three sizes that day.
I don’t really know what to say about this other than Dave Grohl is my rock ’n roll Jesus and Foo Fighters are my religion and this is one of very few Christmas things that warms my heart almost as much as getting an actual hug from my almost-teenage nephew or cuddling my siblings’ toddlers and reading them stories. So I’ll hold that with me today until I get a phone call from them this evening.
And I hope all y’all doing holiday things — or not doing holiday things — this December are taking care of yourselves. And I hope that you have something like this Foo Fighters “Everlong/Christmas Medley” to give you good goosebumps and make the corners of your eyes water. We all need some guitar magic in December. This is mine.
(Song recommendation by E. Kristin Anderson)