I’ve always felt like Bethany from Best Coast is a kindred spirit. Her lyrics are usually pretty simple, and often repetitive, but they’ve resonated with me at various points in my life.
This song is probably the best example of this.
Like many people who have called this planet home, I can pinpoint an exact moment in my life when things changed — and when I changed — forever, irrevocably, sometimes I think for the worse.
Sometimes I don’t like myself very much. I’ve thought, said, and done things that I’m ashamed of. I’ve let myself and others down. There have been moments when I felt like maybe I didn’t want to live this life anymore.
But there are other times when I’m reminded that there is plenty of beauty still to be enjoyed, lovely, interesting people to meet, goals to accomplish. Even if I can’t go back in time and make what’s wrong feel right, and I’ll never be who I was before, I can work on becoming someone I respect.
Luckily, so far, just as often as I’ve found myself in that self-loathing funk, something else has pulled me out of it, reminding me that I don’t want to die; I want to live my life.
(Song recommendation by Samantha Lamph/Len)