How could anybody have you
How could anybody have you and lose you
How could anybody have you and lose you and not lose their minds, too ?
We’re about a month away from Valentine’s Day and I hate it like some people hate Christmas. Ignoring it is easier now, but all of that pink on red hits me, loud, garish, and demanding that I remember that I’m alone.
On Valentine’s Day, 2010, the relationship that I was in ended by email. It wasn’t healthy, but I sometimes wonder if we hadn’t been who we were at that time if things could have worked. Probably not, but god, it was devastating. Technology makes cruelty easier; we can erase people from our lives with a swipe left, or dumping contact information into a fathomless cyber-hole.
I heard this song in November, driving through the early evening in Los Angeles, and it captured me. I was listening to it today and missed California, and missed being in love, and for me it’s got this vibe of a Joan Didion essay, if Didion was making music in the 21st century, observant and cool and full of loss.
I still hate Valentine’s Day. But I fucking love this song.
(Song recommendation by Sarah Nichols)